My Apology

If I wasn't ready
I should've let you know
Instead of letting you in
Just to let you go
I wasn't free from all the drama
I still lived in pain
Now all the love you've felt for me
Is all in vain
But now I have to clear my mind
I did lack honesty
I just want to make it right
With this apology

I don't want it justified
Even though it was one night
To many guilty tears I've cried
Now on my knees I apologize, I apologize

I admit I was afraid
You were to good to be true
My attempted sabotage
Was to find flaws in you
None were present
It was all in my imagination
My own insecurities to blame
For all our frustration
Your feelings weren't considered
When I laid with that man
The remorse is overwhelming
I pray that you'd understand

I'm not tring to justify
I have told to many lies
Your to special in my eyes
Now on my knees I apologize, I apologize