I don't cry around others
I don't let them see my pain
I suppress it as much as I can
But sometimes I need to stop holding back
I turn on the hot and cold
Step into the shower letting it flow over me
It relaxes all my muscles
Gives me time to clear my mind
But in this time
I start to think of him
Finally I can't stop the tear
The fear and sadness I always hold inside
I cant hate him
He hasn't given me anything for that
I cant stop loving him
Even thought we broke up
I have the radio blaring outside the shower door
No one will hear my sobs
The water washes all my tears
Right down the drain
Just like our relationship
It disappears like it was nothing
I fall to the ground
My legs wont support me
I sit there a while
The water trying to sooth me
I have nothing left
Yet I always act like I'm OK
All I want now
Is to leave
I cant escape this heart break
It will follow me to my end
But I need to find something out there thats for me again
Because last time I found Brandon
I just hope my heart doesn't grow cold again
Theirs no one that could defrost it this time
Ive lost the man I love
Because he wants me to have better then him
And he doesn't understand
That I will never love anyone again after him...
My life has gone down the drain
Like water with my tears
No one will ever know
Which is which and it can never be returned again
