Still Missing You

There are times when I just find myself wondering about how things would of been if you were still around,
I was so happy that you were the one I had found.
The day that all changed, everything began to shatter,
And being able to have someone there was one thing that didn't matter.
I think about all the ways that you had to bring me close,
And I cry because that is what I miss the most.
Though time has passed and as I move on,
I'll always tell myself that you aren't really gone.
It hurts so much because I know there will never be another you,
To make me feel like all the dreams I once had will come true.
You guided me into a direction where I knew my way,
You just held my hand and said everything will be okay.
I followed you because you made the most sense to me,
And because you were where I wanted to be.
The day you left I didn't know what to do,
All I wanted was to hold on to you.
I cried so much it still hurts so bad,
I know that I'll never find another love like the kind we had.
I just close my eyes and I can see you there smiling at me,
And I want to be there w/you so desperately.
I miss you so much even after all this time,
I miss you so bad I write these rhymes.
One day I'll see you again,
And I'll be able to feel the way I did back then.
But for now I'll hold your memory close to my heart,
Just like I did in the very start.

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