Someone else is in the picture, though right now it is nothing
Just a crush at the moment, no less, no more
Yet will it grow to love, true love like ours?
So I smash my head into a mirror, punch hard against the door
Punch myself over and over again, scream at reflections
"I hate you" I shout at my shallow self staring at me
Slam my fist into my stomach, why would you love me forever
Collapse in shallow tears where no one can see
I don't have a chance if they affection grows
Because I'm fat, I'm horrible and I don't deserve you
But I love you, that I can promise for all time
I'm so glad that you still love me too
Someone else, my mind doesn't object
But my feelings contradict, feel terrible, so sad
Why this bitter argument among my thoughts and feelings
This developing love will drive me mad
I don't mind my darling, for I am not good enough for you
But I can still hurt, and believe me I cry
Right now, the tears trickle down my face
I don't mind, I really don't, but I don't understand why?
