Words can not come close to explain the way I feel.
The pain that burrows in my soul is unbearable to live with.
The guilt that shadows me covers my thoughts with shame.
I am fragile and ready to brake at any given moment.
These thoughts that fill my head are because of you.
Look at what I have done, look at what I have caused.
My pain is here as punishment for who I am.
I have caused so much horror in your life and for that I must pay.
I can not undo what has already been done.
I can not change the past and now my present holds me with pain.
If I could do anything to take back what I did I would.
Even if it meant for me to suffer more.
I am a slave to my choices, for I always make the wrong ones.
Never have I gotten it right.
Now your hatred towards me kills my soul like a poison.
Look at what I have done.
My one love, my life, my only reason to survive, I have ruined.
I pushed away all that was good.
I thought with that I could live free and unharmed by the pressures of life.
But now I live in the chains of my hurt.
I have lost all hope in life.
You were there, and I didn't see.
My life is nothing without you.
Look at what I have done.
