January 12 2003

Another day in the untranquil sea of anger.
My life.
My heart an opened wound.
Bleeding.
Another day in the pain so consuming.
Like an enraged inferno.
I feel so alone.
Like I am the only one.
Wanting for better but unable to try.
Anymore.
I do my best and fail.
I am worthless.
I am unloved.
My life is no longer my own.
My dreams are no longer dreams but just fantasies.
Don't want to wake.
Anymore.