I have..

I have all of my scars
i have all my breakdowns
i have all my wishes and fantasies
of running away from this town

i have my nice sharp blade
that i promised i would not use
i have kept my promise
but its the hardest thing to do

i have my dearest best friend Emma
who is always by my side
and is there with me most the times
that i have sat and cried

i have all my other friends
Lauren, Amy, Christine, Steph
the ones Ive named so far
have helped me when Ive thought of death

i love those 5 friends so much
they are so loving and so kind
and i am so grateful
that they are friends of mine.

i have my parents and siblings
but they don't understand me
they sometimes try to
but they can just not see.

i have my wish of death
that i still might fulfill
id like to say i love you to all my friends
if you keep me in your heart I'll be with you still

~of course i have to dedicate this to: my best friend Emma (love you SOOO much!), Lauren, Amy Christine, and Steph! thanks so much 4 being there for me i love you all!!!!xxx PLEASE COMMENT AND ILL RETURN THE FAVOR!!!~