Watch me die.

As i sit on my bed, i shake
i hold on so tightly to that blade
i look down at my wrist
i see all the other cuts that Ive made

i remember when i did them
i remember the pain
i remember those times Ive thought of the knife
and just could not restrain.

i think of all those tears Ive cried
the ones that no one knew
all those screams into my pillow
the blood stained sheets and clothes too.

well these tears I'm crying now,
will finally be my last
all that pain i feel, that sadness
the memories in my past

why is no one here to stop me?
oh yeah, because no one cares.
i told them that i can not stand it
but still, they are not there.

i place the blade on my wrist
like Ive done so many times before
before i cut it think through things
no one cared that inside I'm torn

I feel a surge of hurt anger
i push with all my strength
i slide the blade across
its so deep and long in length!

my tears mix with the blood
i scream my last words as i cry
I WARNED YOU ALL OF THIS U DIDN'T CARE
SO NOW COME WATCH ME DIE.

~i cant take this f-ing life anymore!!!! I'm not planning on being here for my 15th birthday.~