I Died Of A Broken Heart

I remember the first time we met
it was so beautiful, how could i forget?
we started out as friends, but we wanted something more,
but it all ended up so wrong, i wish everything was like before
we started going out, our first date was the best
you were the one that i loved most, out of the rest
i placed your name within my heart
hoping that you wouldn't make it fall apart
but our relationship soon when down
you left me falling to the ground
you found something younger and better
you left, without a say, a note not even a letter
and now i cry myself to sleep
i try to scream, but don't make a peep
the night goes on and I'm feeling so hurt
I'm always thinking to myself, why didn't it work?
i bury my head into my hands, when i see something gleam
my life feels like its a horrible dream
i grab the knife and i begin to scar my skin
i see the blood unleash the pain within
cutting is like an escape to me
a door to escape life's mysteries
i watch the blood and try to get you out of my head
i lie and cry across my empty bed
living on and not being allowed to hold you
for me, its just like a nightmare come true
my heart is broken; torn to pieces
cause the memories of you never ceases
i think of you, over and over again
but all i get is more and more pain
i wish you never left me and that you had stayed
i can't believe my wish turned out this way
now, as i watch the blood creep down my arm
its a result from my mental harm
i can't breathe, i can't think, i can't stay alive
because without you, i cannot possibly survive
being alone is the hardest thing of all
when i stand i always fall
you gave me the strength, to get up and carry on
now without you, my spirit is gone
i can't live like this, my life has gone to waste
i open the drawer without a moments haste
i pull out a gun which i intend to end my life
because i know i can never be your girl, fiance, or even wife
i pull the trigger and fall to the floor
the pain is too much, i can't take it anymore
the bullet runs through my head, and hits my brain
my body shuts down, and i end my life, just to escape the pain
i wish you could see the hell that you put me through
but somehow, i still love you
although i had to die this horrible way
your name is in my heart and forever it will stay
i wish i could hold you again, i wish you were here
i close my eyes and i cry my last, single tear
cause baby without you i have fallen apart
please know that i died of a broken heart