No one is what I have,No one is what I am

I took care of myself when I was sick and weak
Only I wasn't sick I was just tired
And I was tired of crying
Because I knew everyone was lying
I wish people would see more in me
Then the girl who was always there
And I'm smiling only to hide
Hide the tears building up inside
Nobody lied for me
No one cried for me
Hell nobody would of died for me
They talk like I wasn't even there
But I was there even when they don't know it
Feelings I don't like to show it
Because I might blow it
Nobody was there when I lost the big game
There's no one to help me cope with the pain
Their words cut me like knifes
I know because that's how I almost ended my life
All the tears they cry in a day
I will cry in an hour
I cry in my sleep, I even cry in the shower
Well they can fall but I won't catch them
They should open their eyes and see all that they have now