I learned some things, and i made mistakes.
many that include you, due to past high stakes.
The deal was to save a life, I must give my own
thats what I attempted, but it ended all wrong.
Not like in the movies, where the hero saves the day
I ended up failing, and now you've gone away.
It doesn't make sense, I mean it was all so easy.
a room away from me, i heard you screaming.
i ran to you, but I failed to make it and I let you die.
my lungs done collapsed and the smoke cut off my air supply.
I couldn't breathe nor speak, yell nor crawl.
just a cold dead body, who couldn't see but saw.
the flames around my body, and the smoke choking me more.
I wasn't breathing, but I was still alive, staring at your door.
I wanted to get up, and run to your side.
but i couldn't move a muscle, and because of that you died.
I closed me eyes, and began to fall sleep
hoping that I'd wake up and it would all be just a dream
but i woke up in the hospital, i knew what went down.
I asked your mother if you were alright, and all she did was frown.
I jumped out of bed, and slammed my head on the ground.
What the hell happened, why was my life allowed.
I thought you were only hurt, so i asked her one more time.
She hugged me and said, "I'm sorry, but she died."
when i heard that, my world just shattered.
i had no tears left and no feelings for that matter.
I had no words, and i lost my heart.
I had nothing in my soul, but a few broken parts.
i spend my days now, sitting in my room.
avoided friends and family, hoping that I'd die soon.
