I never expressed my feelings
and now its time fro a change
I'll tell em all right now
for forgiveness in exchange.
starting off young,
was when i saw whats real
I was no typical 5 yr old kid.
I couldn't laugh, speak nor feel.
As all the kids picked on me
and kicked me to the ground
one person stood up for me
and turned my life around
I know I was still young
but I knew what love was
and as much as I wanted to tell her
something held my mouth shut
So as time moved on
I played as if everything was ok
the time i decided to tell her
was the same time she died that day
so i went back again
to what I was before
kid locked in his own mind
hoping for nothing more
I fought non stop
not caring about who I hurt
cause the ones I attacked
were the ones who started it first
I avoided everyone
cause they'll only bring me pain
and some people brought more anger to me
taking my feelings as a game
so to me, everyone was worthless
and hell, so was I.
thats why i woke up every morning.
hoping that today I'd die.
But of course I was forced to live
and left with all this pain to endure
girl after girl broke my heart
Until i didn't want love anymore.
I broke down more or less
and gave up on everyone
due to the anger from society
I spent everyday alone
I didn't sleep for weeks
i just stayed up and cried
cause all i have left now
is a heart that already died.
tried to revive it
but realized it was pointless
I can't feel anything anymore
I'll just spend my life depressed.
Thinking back at what could have been
but what really is
looking at my insides
trying to find out, what brought this.
this ice block around my heart
that lets me hurt but not heal
that won't allow me to let go
and makes me hide what i feel.
i thought it was a phase
that started when i grew older
but as the years went by
the block only grew stronger
