What If I

What if I change the way I talked
Changed my attitude, changed the way I walked
What if I lied like you
Knowing that you don't care, act like you do
What if I took away my pride
and watch the sun rise like every time I died
What if I, told you what was real
told you what goes on, and how I really feel.
What if I, broke your heart
and showed you what i felt when I fell apart.
What if I, sliced my own wrists
escape all the pain, that you brought to exist
What if I changed the way I act
changed my dark ways, would you even take me back
What if I, chose to die
because I hate the way I feel, when i know that you lie....
What if I, sit and cry
stand in the shadows watching my life go by
What if I rip up my book
staring back at the pain, that I always took
What if I chose to let go
live all alone, but I wouldn't really know
What if I still love you
even though theres all the stuff that you put me through...
Sitting in the corner as time flies by
still asking myself, silly "what if I's....