Memories hold me still

It's these tears
That remind me of you
It's my fears
That hide whats so true
Is it bad, I fear lonely?
Giving such melancholy
Is it bad, I still hold sad?
Remembering everything we had
She has left me unwanted
And love haunted
I miss her so much more
Than i could ever afford
I'm tainted by these feelings
Red painted with no healings
I ponder about this blunder
And wander with no wonder
I'm still so confused
Emotionally abused
It's this love that binds me still
Holding her picture as I get ill
Death is soon at my wrists
To end this poets awful twist