Early morning

Early morning and the suns rays peek out from the clouds
Rising slowly into the sky, colouring it blood red
My eyes snap open and memories flood my mind
Sifting through dreams, extracting thoughts from my head

Holding tight to no one, no one to keep me safe
Mutters inaudible over the silence, different things to say
Blood stains my arms, once more the addiction caught me
Everywhere all over me, I wretch and hide them away

Tears drop from my suspicious eyes, bitter
The cold of winter floods through my blue veins
Shadows grow tall with the rising disastrous sun
Screams echoing of the heart of my pain

Every word no longer a sanctuary as my belief wavers
Trusting your words yet terrified every hour
Wrath escapes me as my hands smash the mirror
Broken glass spreads across the wilted flowers

Him, my voice drips with cold blooded venom
Hatred seeps through me, no longer controlling myself
The sensible words are drowned out because he loves her
Cold tears mercilessly flow as I pick the blade up from the shelf

Her voice, soothes me as the blood runs down my skin
Once again, the rational thinker is commanding my feelings
She loves you, listen to her, she loves you, its true
She sends me comfort, her words are slowly healing

Anger, jealousy bitter malicious words yell out
Exploding as I hack away the mourning days
Fighting with myself because I know she loves me
Scratching, clawing at my mind to make the madness fade

Collapsing, unconsciousness welcomes me
Grasping at the tiny tendrils of sanity and sin
Bringing me to my senses, normality starts to return
Wandering aimlessly waiting to let myself in