Every time I speak to you
I begin to cry
I remember the time that we spent as a
Happy couple in love
I remember the pain when you were gone
I recall the hurt that you introduced to me
The first time around
Its not the first time this invaded my mind
It erased all I had that was happy
It kills me inside to see you and not be able to hold you
And kiss you
And give all I could give
It hurts beyond comparison to anything I've ever felt
I miss you like crazy
Crying over what could have been
And what should've happened
It stings like a bee
But hurts like an open bleeding wound
Everyones concerned something is wrong
I cannot open up for fear of being denounced
It eats at my chest walls as my heart doesn't’t exist anymore
My heart is a hole
With no more compassion to the race of man
I hide behind a mask of fake happiness I know will never be
I talk to you and the nightmares come back
The dreams of your threats
The endings were like hell in my head
I talk myself out of going back
It always seems to hurt worse when I do see you
Death is soon to me where I wont feel a thing
No pain again
No happiness
Just a cold spot in the ground
With a block of concrete on top to show where I rest
I belong there
The world can go on without me
I do not care anymore
You’ve made me hard and cold
Colder than ice
My words no longer show the compassion and love
Of a girl who had thought she found her prince
Ice surrounds my heart and blocks any heat from love that could exist
I cannot exist now
I am a cold walking dead corpse that should be long gone
I have no more regrets in this life
More or less disappointed this ended up this way
Hold me now and bring me to life
Or let me go under
Either is my plan
The end of life draws near for me
Let me go under and be rid of my haunted spirit
Or show you really give a d*** about me
Your choice
My life
It hangs in the balance
Time is ticking
And my clock is almost gone
Hurry up and decide what to do with me
