Dear estelle(i'm sorry)

Dear Estelle,
I'm sorry you ever met me
I'm sorry i wasn't there
I'm sorry i didn't show much love
even thought i did care

I'm sorry for cutting
if i didn't then you wouldn't have started

I'm sorry for all my problems
and all the pain i caused
I'm sorry that i can't remind,
can't rewind and pause

I'm sorry we are like strangers now
I'm sorry I'm so f**ked up

I'm sorry you are reading this
but it's this you must know i wanted to say I'm sorry
before i go

I'm sorry i decided to end it all
please don't cry or wonder why
up in heaven i will hear you sigh

I'm sorry i am crying now
and picking up the blade
i wouldn't of lived much longer
even if I'd stayed

I'm sorry life got too much for me
I'm sorry i was weak
I'm sorry this is written
but it's getting hard to speak

I'm sorry my body's going numb
I'm sorry I'm half dead
I'm sorry my tears are cold
as i lie in a puddle of red

I'm sorry i left this note
I'm sorry i told you why
life was too hard
the only choice to die

I'm sorry you blame you
but I'm dead now and theirs nothing you can do