I now know what its like to hate yourself
To hate yourself as i did the other day
The reason for this being
That i couldn't say what i wanted to say
I wanted to say something to someone
Bu as much as i wanted to i could not
It was that night i realized
That i in fact do his allot
What i wanted to say was nothing major
Bu it i still wanted to say
Now all i think about is this
It hurts me everyday
I said it in the end
But the way i did wasn't he same
I seemed to have no impact
So I'm assuming it was lame
Bu i's more complex than that
I didn't do what i wanted either
So i wanted to say and do something
But i could do neither
I'm being non-specific
But what i say is true
That night i realized something
That before i never knew
I hate myself for knowing what i want to say
I hate myself for knowing i don't
I hate myself for knowing what i want to do
I hate myself for knowing i wont
