I tried to fit in
I tried to love
I tried to be the best of what i am
I tried to be a good friend
I tried to try to much
I wanted so much more then this pain i feel
I wanted to say every word right
I'm trying so bad to fit in life
I know i wont be any good
I'll always be alone
I have been for the last 17 years
I know now to keep my feelings inside cos everyone has heard them all before
I don't want to love anyone after you
I don't like the pain that comes with holding your hand
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't wanna be here in this pit of misery
I'm tired of being judged
I'm tired of being alone
And most of all Ive had enough of feeling this
I don't even have a friend to talk to anymore
I lost the best of mine ages ago
I'm fed up of crying at night while I'm writing my life on a page
I'm not happy anymore
I can be but that soon ends when i try to sleep
All my thoughts are confused
No one understands me anymore
No one takes the time to ask me how i feel
I'm alright i say if they do ask
Even though i feel like i could cry at any minute
Ill guess ill be fine in the end
I will die alone and ill be the happiest on that day
