Confused and Empty

*sorry so long*

I don't know how to explain this.
I don't know if it's real.
I don't know if this is how it's supposed to be.
Me and you together forever.

I'm so confused.
Because I have someone else.
But I don't know about you.
For some reason you have been in my dreams.

You're always there talking to me.
And in a couple, we were actually together.
But why are these dreams coming to me?
Shouldn't they be going to someone else?

The dreams made me change.
Made me real different inside.
Something tells me to be with you instead of the one I'm with.
But I'm confused about everything.

I've been more depressed than I have ever been in my life.
But I have gone close to suicide.
And even tried it once.
But something kept me here.

Was it you or was it something else?
Maybe it was you and someone else.
But I don't know.
I don't know what to think.

I keep seeing you everywhere.
That might sound crazy and all.
But I do.
I just don't understand.

Is someone trying to tell me something?
Or is it just my imagination?
Something is telling me that it's a sign.
But I can't believe them.

I feel so stupid.
Just standing there and thinking if we could ever be.
But how can I know?
I don't even know you.

I feel crazy all the time.
Because I see you in my dreams and everywhere I go.
Do you do the same?
Do you even know anything about me?

For some reason I can't get you off my mind.
I don't know what's going on.
I wish I did.
Maybe I would actually know the answers I need to know.

My mind is attached to you.
But my heart and soul is attached to someone else.
Is there anything you can do?
Anything that can clear up these feelings and thoughts?

I want to say I love you.
I want to say I need you.
I want to say that I want you.
But something is holding me back.

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