What I did not do

There were times when
I should have done something
But I never did
There were times when
I should have said something
But I never did
I should have been better
But I never was
And now as I look
back at my life I see
What I did
Stuff I should have done
Stuff I should have said
But I never did frozen by fear
Fear of loss
Fear of pain
Fear of never being the same
And for what
Nothing
I lost
I may have gained
But I hold my regret
That I never did
what I should have done
But would I be different
or would I still be the same
I don’t know
but I hope things don’t get worse
I’m sorry
That I never did all of that
That I never did help you
I’m sorry
I will have to go on
Even with shit in the past
I will move
I will struggle
And I will not give up