I'm Losing Faith

In the early morning
When I rose
There is no reflection for me
No shadow, no light

The sun is still extravagant
And the soft, fabric of my sheets
Embrace my body
Yet I don’t feel anything

Get ready for the waiting day
But it feels so empty
The usual attire, everything’s the same
But it feels so lonely
The streets are impatient, dull gray sidewalks
A boast of cries and laughter
Seem so distant from the point where I stand

I’m losing faith, giving way
Into this scene
My performance deserves an anchor
Throw thorny roses, scented, and capable to cut
There is no harmony
That was lost ages ago

Everyone in my play is a fake
A fabrication created by this dubious mind
No one understands
No one looks, so blinded, so stupid
It gets harder to fall asleep at night
Oh well, I can always daydream

I lost hope the day I believed in it
There is no one for me
Nothing can sedate this lonely heart
Emptiness held me so tight, I suffocated
Beautiful irony, isn’t it?
Dance, dance, until you die
Fall until you’ve reach bottomless
These walls have been breached
…Give in!

I’m losing this game, giving way
Into this dream
Too lost to find my path, the breadcrumbs
Have been eaten
There is no peace
That was lost the day I realized everything

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Wondering aimlessly in this
Deserted place
Seems there is no place for me
It’s lonely and cold
The ground calloused my feet
(Sighs)
I’m too confused to cry
No one will hear no hear these stifled tears
My world lies in perfect solitude
I’m confined; it’s getting harder to breathe

I’m losing my fame, giving way
Into what it seems…
To be the end, relinquish me
I’m fading into nothing
There is no love
I remain sedentary in my heart

~~~****~~~~Another voice

Close your eyes, don’t delay
You’ll soon realize
It’s not as bad as it seems
You gave in too easily
Not fighting for what you had
Butterflies still flutter, birds still
Sing, water still flows
…And time passes infinitely
Ignite your passion again and
Fortify that lost soul
Barraged with hopelessness
The child could not grow
Closed for too long, the child could not show
Feelings yet to be expressed
Give way to time
Soon you’ll see
There is meaning to life

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This voice, too soft, placid, but true
I’ve been blinded for too long
Wallowing in myself
The lights are dim
But I see
Enough to realize what I’ve been missing
Let me pick up the pieces
I won’t let them fall again
Give me freedom and let me run
Embrace the fullness of life
Abandon this emptiness
Truth is within my reach
Fulfill my dreams
Destroy my apathy
Regain my empathy
Search for a meaning and never forget

I’m gaining faith, giving way
For this simple smile
It’s so easy, I could cry
Make it infectious, like a disease
Make it beautiful, like a blossoming tree
Make it last, like the vast aquarium sea
Make it for everyone
There is a place and time for
All of us
I realized the day….
…I opened my eyes

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I can’t wait for the next day to come
Greet ever morning with a kiss…
…And a smile…