Story called my life

So here is the story of my life .

when i was so small
i was the happiest little kid
then as i grew older
i realized what i was dealing with
my dad has been sick since i was five
mother was a complete b****
she will not let me do anything
well now my dad had a problem
a huge problem that my mother could not handle
and guess what she did
she sent him to the hospital
now he is out and she will not
let him back here
so now he lives with his brother
i think this is unfair
since he is not here me and my sister have to suffer
she makes us do everything
and she does not lift a finger
i wanna see my father
but no im not allowed to
i can not even talk to him
i wanna live with him
i hate my mother
why can i not kill myself
i have tried so many times
but each time im saved
all i want
is out of this life