it's really good you stopped cutting for such a long time. don't give up. i know the feeling when u want to cut, but you're stronger than that. it's ok to feel week but never give in. life might be hard, but trust me it'll reward you one day. so dont waste your life for a few pains, wait. and remember, you're never alone. i went through some shit a while ago, and i learnt how to rise when i fell.. that's life.. if u need to talk, i'm there. dont hurt yourself. be strong