Numbers

18 isn't that old
but it seems ancient to me
and I'm lying in my bed
thinking about eternity

I measure my life in numbers
like what Ive always had
such as 16 years
thats how long its been since Ive seen my dad

How about we go to 23
my number of brothers and sisters
with exception of one who didn't make it past 12..
half of them are misters..

The next number is 3
the number of times my heart has broke
and 1 millions the number of tears
that i cried when i awoke...

10s the perfect number
to describe my perfect friends
id wouldn't give them up for 100 dollars..
were together till the end

1 is the single number
of times i almost died
because i was playing with a pine cone
and a scorpion was inside..

2 is the number of children
i take care of every day
wash, and feed and bathe them
watch them while they play..

13 is the credits I'm taking
when i start college this year
I'm nervous and excited
a real life's coming near

4 is the age of the person
who means the most in my life
my niece is the person who empowers me
to put down that shiny knife..

80 was the weight i hated
the one that drove me insane
and ended me up in a facility
specializing in weight gain...

2 is the number of days
that he was by my side
infinite was the loss in my heart
the day that my son died..

Forever he promised to keep me
but 3 years was all i got
50 is the number of nights
I stayed in my room to rot..

6569 is the number of days Ive been alive...
6 is the times they shocked me
to get my heart to revive

18 isn't that old..
but it seems ancient to me
18 is the number
that tomorrow i will be...

Happy birthday to me on 7-20.. and also Rest in peace Jesse 4/13/77-7/20/98