Stormy Nights

The rain relentlessly patters
Against the windowsill
A stormy night, I can recall
The pain that lies there still

The thunder crashes and I’m afraid
Of what is left to come
Lightening flashes so bright
And my nerves turn numb

Oh, I do remember
As I was scared then too
Age had not effected
The fear that flowed through

I was nine or ten
Hurt by the kids at school
I wanted to tell my mom
How they were being so cruel.

The electricity flickered through the house
And my hair stood on end
My stomach was in knots
I needed my best friend.

I picked up the phone
And dialed the numbers I knew well
To hear my mother’s shaky voice
Put me in an unbreakable spell.

I stood frozen, quite in shock
For just as she said, “Hello”
A screeching sound of burning tires
Finalized that road I know.

They said it wasn’t my fault
That the road was just slippery
And the constant flashes of light and sound
Put her out of her misery.

What a way to die, I think
It was only one phone call.
I thought I needed her so much
But now I have no one at all.

These stormy nights won’t go away
I see her face everywhere
It haunts me, the guilt, I fear
I need to wake up from this nightmare.

Yet even I know this is no dream
For the scars are still there.
She loved me, and I loved her
And now I can’t find her anywhere.

So now, as I recall this
I walk down the road at night
Rain and wind thrash at my face
But I feel no pang of fright.

Headlights blind these eyes
But I just want to get away
Please let the rain stop now,
I’m not going to be okay.

My mom should know I’m sorry
I just was looking for a friend.
A storm came between us, perhaps
But I know I see the end.

A bright light approaches
I stand firmly, reciting my apology
There’s the squealing of the tires
There’s no hope in missing me.