The poem i never wrote you

Kayla so many times I have wrote you poems and wanted to start it off with saying. By the time you read this I am dead, but I never could cause every time I did your face flashed in front of me and I put down the knife. Because when I see you with out me I feel already dead. That feeling I get every time is getting bigger and bigger every day. A feeling of hopelessness comes over me and I feel like it is not worth it any more. What is the point of living life if you can’t be with the one you feel like you are made for? I feel like if I try to hold in my pain any more I may lose it and do some thing that I will regret. Kayla I can say I want to be with you forever but that still does not tell you how much I love u. I love you head to toe from the front to the back. From every freckle to every hair I love you. No matter how u change good or bad I will love you. Do not ask me how or why I feel this way. There is only one reason why I love you so much, because you showed me that you will love me no matter what too and no one has ever done that for me. You have been there more times for me than any one can think possible. To me you are perfect we are both like peaces of a broken heart and we fit perfectly. But with out the other we are not whole. As I know today is your birthday and yes I know u are older, but I still love you as much as when I first meet you. I know I am being selfish I know but you know when I want some thing I will never give up. I will never give up on you and me. Love is some thing I have learned to hate and like but I love it when I am with you and hate it when I am not. The reason why I hate it is because it hurts worse that any cut or burse I have ever got. Love is like a pain that will never go away, but you want it to stay. Why can some thing do this to some one and not care? They are right you never know how much you love some thing until you lose it. Well I knew I loved you but did not know it would hurt this bad. But if I could go back in time I would only change one thing. I would tell you I loved you more every day. Maybe I would be more gentile with your emotions. Today on your birthday I hope you have the best day cause you deserve it more than any one. You put up with me for a year and 4 months I bet it is good to be free but me sitting here in this room shows that I do not like being by myself. Me here is me saying I love you and I want you back. Kayla I love you. Happy 16 birthday baby!!!!!