Why do i try?

Why should I try any more? All I want is you and I finally see that I will never get that. I am tired of people saying thing so I can hear tired of all the things I miss with you tired of waking up every day and knowing it is going to be the same. Why should I try for the of some one that wont give it? Do I have to do every thing ask you to do stuff, do I really have to tell you what is wrong? What happened to you? You always asked me if I was ok now you never ask. You know I will not freely tell you what is wrong. I do not work that way. I though you knew me so well guess not. I hate trying and not getting any thing. For all I have done and been through with you this is what I get. Yeah you really love me don’t you? I am your best friend right well why do I not get some attention. You want every thing about you? What about me all I want is you it really is not that much to ask for. Will I ever get it I think not? How can I love some one that won’t love me back? Loving some one means that you show them love they show you love I guess you get the easy part you do not have to show me I guess. Well I hope you can find some one who will stay up with you all night just to see if you fall asleep ok. I do not know what keeps me loving you but some times I want it to go away so bad. I have a constant feeling like I am going to cry in my throat when I think of you. I want it gone! No one cares about my feelings it seems. You know I want you to be happy but if me not being there with you does not make you happy I do not want it. I wish I could go back and do every thing again make all my wrongs right and make you happy for all the times I have mad you sad. I guess my life is over….. good bye.