I hope This Kills

You said you'd always be there , you said you'd always care

But when you pushed me , slapped and spit in my face I then knew that forever gone would be my state of grace

So on that night of pain and sorrow
I took out my best friend , the one that would be there until tomorrow

His name was Razor he helped me deal , although the cuts he caused did slowly heal

Cut after cut slowly did Razor deceive , for he did not reduce the pain that I did conceive

Not yet did I give in a few more cuts , this could not worsen my sin

So I did a few more , I did not stop until my cutting hand was sore

A stream of dark crimson slowly trickled down my arm , the tears on my face felt oh so warm

Again I was deceived though not by you , all this pain held within me ; I just could not cope , for my life and will to live were all twisted through my cosmic telescope

This pain was the only pain that I could control but no longer could I handle it's toll

So I reached for plan two , a bottle of pills and began to cogitate " I hope this kills "