Tell them i tried

When i am gone,
Tell them i tried...
I couldn't stay long..
Or I'd have cried..

I couldn't have done that,
I had to say strong..
So i just sat,
And cut, did i do wrong?

No time for a second thought,
I have to leave.
Sorry, Honest i fought,
Please don't grieve.

This is was my last wish,
Please don't cry.
Respect my final wish,
I did try.

Don't cry of what you lost,
Celebrate my life.
Release, but at what cost?
Blame me, not the knife!

Sorry, that i had to leave you,
To leave you this way.
I will miss you, After my life is through,
I will watch over you, everyday!

So as i leave this world,
Let them know, i wanted this.
I was a distant girl,
And i know i will be missed.

Why i hear you ask? Why?
My choice is for my unshown pain.
Why you say? Why must i die?
Don't hate me, there is no one to blame!

So after i leave this life,
Say i tried.
Don't curse the knife,
I cried...

I cried, when you found me,
Just tell them goodbye.
Tell them, i am now free...
Tell them i tried!