Just one more time

She promises herself
It'll be just one more time
and then no more
but shes made these promises
a thousand times before
shes hidden the blade
away from everyone else
somewhere she hopes shell forget herself
but the whole world knows shes depressed
the whole world knows her lifes a mess
what people don't understand is the reason why
and the reason why she needs to lie
nobody understands why she cant be truthful
and be the person she longs to be
if somebody looked deep into her eyes
i wonder what they'd see
would it be a fantasy life
or would it be reality
only she knows the answers
but she'll never tell
the reasons why he lifes a living hell