Messed Up Girl

Everyday I gaze into the mirror,
But the only thing I see,
Is the horribly ugly monstrosity,
Staring back at me,
I hate the way I look,
And I hate the way I am,
But no-one seems to care,
‘Cause no-one gives a damn,
They don’t know how it feels,
To hate yourself so much,
To be able to end it all,
With the knife tight in your clutch,
Having so much control over my life,
Gives me a certain sense of power,
Makes me feel strong,
Though I’m getting weaker by the hour,
One second I’ll be happy,
And laughing along,
Till suddenly it changes,
And everything starts to go wrong,
Try as I must,
To fight off the pain,
I just can’t help myself,
From cutting again,
One day I know,
I’ll go to deep,
Then I’ll finally be happy,
In perpetual sleep,
But until that long
Awaited day,
When my lifeless soul
Drifts away,
I just have to live here,
In this world,
For I am just one,
Messed up girl.