Stopping Loves Pain

I sit there on the bathroom floor
I need to let it out
I need to show my love for you
Without the need to shout

I think I will show this with a knife
Then maybe you would care
Maybe if I carved your name
My love for you you’d share

Then again it may not work
But I might as well try
I can not keep it locked up much longer
Without the need to cry

I take the knife from on the floor
And look at its sharp edge
Then I get my arm
And rest it on the cold white ledge

I run the blade along my skin
And remember the deepest counts
I begin to press down with the knife
I hold in all the shouts

I then stop for a second
Blood dripping down my arm
I get a pen a paper
For the moment there’s no harm

I write down why I love you
And why I have to leave
Some blood drips on the paper
I’m finding it hard to breathe

I tell you not to miss me
And I tell you not to cry
I wish for your happiness
And how I’m sorry that I died

I say goodbye to my parents
I tell them I’ll be ok
I know I am leaving early
But I know todays the day

I tell my best friend I will miss her
But I’ll be watching down everyday
Making sure shes happy
In every single way

Now that I have finished writing
I can hardly breathe
I put down the pen
And say its time to leave

I pick up the knife
With the blood red stain
I say this is the day
The day that stops the pain

I plunge the knife into my wrist
I cry out with pain
All the blood falling like this
I must of cut the vein

Just as this happens
My love walks through the door
He looks at my pale face
As he falls to the floor

I said I am sorry
But I couldn’t go on
You love her
And it felt so wrong

He sat there just staring
As I said my last words
I am sorry fab but I love you
And now i will leave you to be hers…