Temptation

Last night I was tempted again
To resume what I had abandoned
My hurt had become unbearable
Freely tears fell onto my pillow in pain

I nearly went back to my old ways
My eyes flooded over and I wept
Cradling my head I look at an old friend
Pain choking my breaths I only gaze

These old wounds ached to repeat
I needed to unleash what I held within
Anguish sealed my screams in my chest
Maybe just one more it won't be a cheat

I held my friend's hand in my own
Tears never stopping continuing in a flow
Ceaselessly stroking my friend gently
I look at the picture of someone I'd known

No one would know the truth of it
Seeing the picture of someone okay
Falsely smiling and feigning coolness
But that person is no longer perfect

I cry even harder now knowing the reality
I can no longer cave into my desire
To release all the pain how I once did
It would now be the wrong fatality

Replacing my friend of coldness and hate
I look away knowing the pain will leave
For now I just need to escape
From my life and this pitiful fate