Cant explain

Crying in my blood. wishing it made scenes. i have nothing. no friends, no faith, no heart. all i have is pain. a deep pain. something i cant explain. i feel as if nothing is right. i feel as if i couldn't win a fight. all i need is someone to hold me and tell everything will be alright. all i need is someone to love me. i thought i had that. i thought maybe i was happy, and i was. but good things donut last forever. nothing does. blood represents my pain. my pain represents something i can not explain. all this is doing is driving me insane. i cant finish this. i know no one has read this far. the story of my life. that ends in a heart beat. just as it started. but if it ends like it started. whats the point.......