An Innocent

One innocent thing
In all my existance
That I have now soiled
With my dark resistance

My resistance to it
Even being alive
I didn't know
How I would survive

What do I do?
I'm not ready for this
A child is joyfull
And happiness and bliss

Not a mistake
That causes your tears
Not something that
Is one of your fears

I should be celebrating
And dancing about
Not trembling and crying
And wanting to shout

My innocent babe
Did nothing wrong
I tried to be brave
And tried to stay strong

I wanted it gone
To never have been
So I would be free
And my rep would be clean

I miss my babe now
That it never was
Miss it more than anything
Like a mom does

~*goodbye*~