It would be kind of sad

I don't really want to live this life
I don't want to be who I am
I'm sick of trying to talk to you
when I don't think you understand

so you can just abandon me
just like you did before
cause now I'm used to being lonley
its not weird to me anymore

I used to be afraid of dying
it used to seem so cruel
but fears fire is burning out now
its kind of losing all its fuel

it seems like nothing in this world
has a meaning or a purpose
and I feel like I'm nothing
and in someways totally worthless

but I've tried to get through this
I've tried to be strong
but who really wants to live in a world
where everything goes wrong?

I sure as hell don't
cause honestly...it blows
but it would be kind of sad
if I was to suddenly let go