Downward spiral

The downward spiral
that is my life
i do fear my disease is viral
spread by pain of one to another
her and i torn asunder

still together yet so far apart
this new disease spreads to my heart
i no longer function with out her here
no longer happy with out her to bear

drugs, alcohol, simple distractions
the only things left to keep my world from reactions
its sad when it comes down to it
not wanting your life
more wanting the bullet

the path i walk is winding
and i cant ever go back again
i try not to bi*ch at the pebbles and sticks
but when a loved one throws them its hard not to flinch

who ever said words cant hurt was so very wrong
the simple pain of his name
makes me wish that i was gone
the sticks and stones will break my bones
the words just break my spirit
its made me take off my ears
just so i cant hear it

the sight of them is too much
my mind cant bear such things as thus
so now my life ends with my heart exploding
no more love and sadness growing...