How Life Used To Be!!!

It was only yesterday, I was just a little girl
My mom used to call me her pink little pearl
I went to school and I attended class
Then everything broke as if it was glass.

I met this guy, who I thought was so sweet
Liked him so much, got swept off my feet
So kind, so caring with such a big heart
If only my mom would not make us part.

Seven months went by, I never wanted to say
Couldn’t handle the thought of him staying away
My birthday came by and I could no longer lie
I told her the truth and she said she would try.

Said she would meet him and give him a chance
Said she would not judge him on just one glance
Couldn’t tell in her eyes what she really thought
Just hoped she knew that it meant a lot.

Finally the day where they would have to meet
I was so nervous, I just couldn’t eat.
But things went well, they seemed to get along
Next thing I knew, I had it all wrong.

She told me to stop and no longer progress
A kinship that will cause grief and stress
That won’t be accepted along the line
That will conflict lives, especially mine.

She didn’t agree with the feelings I had
She didn’t care if it made me sad
She wanted him out of my life for good
Made it clear and made sure I understood.

I was so pained, upset and angry
I didn’t care, I just didn’t agree
I loved him and he meant the world to me
I wasn’t about to let go who I wanted to see.

I made the choice and so did she
I moved out, chose who I wanted to be
Left my home, left things in a bind
Left so quick I thought I went blind.

Everything went wrong, my life was a mess
Missed my mom, my family and all the rest
Didn’t know how to get through another day
But he was there for me every step of the way.

Now were engaged married we’ll be
My life is no longer but just what I see
Wished only that my mom would change
I’d give anything now for that exchange.

Sometimes I feel empty, cold and alone
Sometimes I wish I could pick up the phone
I miss listening and hearing her voice
But I know in the end I made my choice.

She won’t care, she still won’t agree
Doesn’t understand who I want to be
Wants me to come home and go to school
But now that’s too late, I won’t be the fool.

My mom and I used to always fight
Together we were like day and night
But she was the only one that always knew
What I really wanted, what I thought was true.

She never wanted to see, never made a comment
Never understood, why I wanted to be so different
Always pulled me towards what she wanted me to be
She wouldn’t let go she knew I’d set myself free.

She didn’t keep me in a cage but kept a close eye
She wanted me to have the life she saw in the sky
She wanted to know too much, so much I had to lie
I never wanted too, I just didn’t want to see her cry.

She saw things her way, so that’s how I had to be
Now I wish she would accept the life I chose for me
Everything in life I loved and cherished the most
To my mom now I’m nothing but a ghost.