I don't know what I want.
I know that I want you,
You're mine, but you,
You're heart's not here.
And babe, it don't feel right,
Why is it that when I need you,
You're not anywhere in sight?
The one you used to be,
Is not the one who's here now.
I have to pull your hand,
Call you, write to you,
To get your attention.
I do all these things but
You don't seem to care,
Say, what am I to you?
What if I dissappeared?
Would you come looking?
Or will you be just sitting there?
If I was to fall off a cliff,
Will you be there to hold my hand?
If I try commit suicide,
Will you be the one stopping me?
The one you used to be you,
Was truthful, and you spoke
Like I was someone special,
Not just answering questions
That I ask you on the phone,
Why can't you just talk to me?
The number of letters and notes,
I wrote to you since last summer,
You were brighter, I was shyer,
You responded when I wrote,
Now, you don't look like you want it,
When I hand you the note,
Does it mean nothing anymore?
When I pass by during band
You have to hide behind a stand,
Ignore, me or give me a smile,
Your smile don't come from your heart,
You never really smiled to me from the start.
When you smile to get my look off of you,
I only think of it as a fake smile.
Why can't you just smile from the heart?
Why can't you just do it from your heart?
Why do you have to hide your real feelings?
Why do you say that you like me when
You're just hanging onto me just so that
You don't hurt my feelings?
When you already have,
Silently, but painfully...
Why can't you love me from your heart?
