Fairytales

They never tell you how much it hurts in those misleading fairy tales
in those stories and images
where everything is beautiful
and your heart swells with passion..

They never mention the pain,
I was never given the warning label
that said love could do this to a person,
they never told me how much it aches to care..

I was oblivious in my misery
eyes gauzed in old scars
looking into yours with hope
never realizing the agony that would follow..

this is how we all begin
no matter how damaged,
or bitter,
or cynical we are...

we all have this little child living inside us
that yearns for devotion and reassuring arms
and hot breath on the side of your neck at midnight..

there is something inside all of us
that wants so badly to believe..
you'd think after a lifetime of wounds
I would have seen this one coming
would be able to take it in stride..

but i didn't count on this bottomless kind of attachment..
I didn't realize I could love someone
as deeply and blindly as i love you..

thats the problem
the one fatal catch in this romantic ideal society perpetuates
its not realistic..

people change
people leave
and people bleed..

you cant give your heart to someone so fully
and expect to survive when they rip it out..

its like placing your life on the altar
of the one person you think deserves it
and having them set fire to your soul..

everything inside you
everything that begged to feel
is savagely ripped into tiny fleshy chunks..

and the face of the one person you love,
the eyes you could spend eternity staring into
turn away in cold indifference
and leave you to die alone..