Alcohol abuse

This pain will not heal
As fast as they think
Without you with me
I've turned to the drink.

I'm ashamed and I'm weak
I just cannot bear
To see my reflection,
To feel this despair.

I am stupid, not proud
Of how I can't cope
Without this elixir
Which brings me false hope.

Heartbroken and scared
I'm wrecking my life
Afraid to go forward
And leave you behind.

Sitting and wishing
Of what should have been
This pain in my mind
Is yet to be seen

I drink to the pain
I drink to the past
I'll drink to you leaving
As my life goes to dark