This Is Goodbye, one last time...

Here I am in this dirty world,
Guess what I found?
In hell no one can hear you cry,
Even when you make so much noise really you're not making a sound.

All I can see is red,
Guess what I found?
The sinking feeling in my stomach.
Dark red blood pooling on the ground.

I'm over whelmed by a feeling,
Guess what I found?
The feeling that was holding me was fear,
Because I know I'm hell bound.

In this God-forsaken world
Guess what I found?
Nobody cares or loves me,
My life; built on a dirt mound.

There is no way of an escape,
I know 'cause I beg and I try and try
But nothing ever works out,
And all I can think of is if I die...

Everything seems to make sense,
Nothing is left for me here,
There's nothing that I'd leave behind,
So down into the darkness I will steer.

I know I'm going to die, I want to,
And all I can think of is if anyone will cry?
Somehow I honestly doubt it,
To think anything else would be a lie.

So I'll say goodbye one last time,
To all those people who wanted me dead,
Thanks for having me; you've been great,
Thanks for the such lovely words you all said.