One pill after another
wondering what will be uncovered
scared of what will happen once i start
looking in the mirror tearing myself apart
thinking of the people i am about to leave behind
annoyed at the love i so long to find
tears are streaming down my face
i feel so lost, trapped in this place
it is the only option left to choose
i will not miss it there is not much to lose
how can you miss something that was never there
how can you make sense of pain when you know it is not fair
how can you stay strong through it all
when time and time again you watch yourself fall
watch yourself fall deeper into that dark hole
then go crazy because you lose control
you have tried so hard to be happy and hide
hidden all those tears of pain you have cried
but now your world somehow falls apart even more
leaving you shaking uncontrollably falling on the floor
i am sick of the pain and deceit
i will explain it to you when if on the other side we meet
