A Living Lie

I'm so tired of living a lie,
Of smiling at the secrets I hide.
The knife is my only solace.
My blood stains on the floor.
Scars remain, yet I want more
Than living this lie.
I told you everything
But you always found it terrifying.
So if I have to,
I will live this lie to save you.
Lock the door, look away,
Leave me here, here I'll stay
Alone, living a lie.