I miss you

As I lay in my bed thinking about all the times I told you I hated you
I cry myself to sleep
Wishing I could say “good night dad, I love you”
Feeling like I should kill myself
But dad I love you
I didn’t mean all those things I said
The day mom told me you died I fell on the floor and screamed my lungs out wishing I could hug you and tell you I love you
Now I know that I will never get to hug you and call you daddy
Why did you have to leave so soon
I was only wit you for 11 years of my life
Now you will never be able to be with me when I graduate
When I get married
When I have my first baby
You will never be called poppy
Every step I take, every move I make every, breathe I take, every single day, every time I pray I’ll be missing you
If you can hear me daddy
I love you

A part of this poem is from a song..but if you dont want me to have it in there you can tell me and i'll take it out....thanx