I feel like i have no one

I dont know what is wrong with me
i feel like i do not belong
i try to push my feelings away
but its so hard to pretend that i am strong

i feel like i have no one
with whom i can confide
feel that no one knows the real me
that my true self i must hide

my family is not like me
they do not understand
they can not even give a shoulder to cry on
or offer their helping hand

i feel that in this world
i am surrounded by people but am alone
feel that no matter where i am
its never truely home

i want someone to understand me
to break through this wall
want to know that they will catch me
when i am feeling weak and fall

in this world i feel like an outcast
nothing is as it seems
happiness and comfort
are mostly only in my dreams

i am over all these painful feelings
i am sick of lifes path
i just want to be happy
want to have fun and laugh

i still wonder why i am here
what do i bother living for
i guess the answer to this questions
i will never know for sure...