Last broken dream

Is this how it's supposed to be?
Why should this pain come to me?
I had found friends, had found new hope
But no i can't take it anymore, to the ceiling i'm now tying a rope
Kicking away the chair, whispering goodbye
I'm sorry but i had to die

let me tell you about the pains of my life
about my struggles and my strife
never before, have i needed someone like i do now
But i'm still alone, i cant see how
Can't see another way out of this
I still remember that one last kiss
before she nearly took her life, left this place
made all those tears run down my face
before i fell down into the dark
look at me, look at my heart, can you see this mark
These scars within my chest
never gives me any rest
always aching, i don't know where i should go
asked if this will have an end, but the answer's no
This pain will never go away
not if i in this world should stay

I would give almost anything to leave all of this
but i stay because of those who me will miss
the only reason i stay, is that some does want me to
they say that someone will take away my pain, but who?

I think my one last dream has been broken, another time
She said those words, made me want to commit one of gods crime
To take my life, leave everything as it is
cause i don't know, if my heart can take this
I want to cry, scream out my fears, all of my pain
I'm cracking up, i'm going insane
My dream made me fight for myself
now that it is gone, i might just put my own life on the shelf
Cause, if it is how it seems to be
there's nothing i can do for me