A life you'll never know

I have to see my blood
I have to know my heart
I have to feel the flood
That flows to keep us apart
I have to taste the salt
I have to cry the tears
I have to know its my fault
I have to face my fears
I have to feel the pain
I have to see the colour
I have to hide the stain
It must remain undercover
I have to blame myself
I have to use the blade
I know I need no help
Sooner or later the cuts will fade
I have to deal with things in my way
I have no choice
Look at my pain and hear what it can say
These cuts are my voice
I have to tell you go get away from me
I have to tell you to go
I have to make you see
A life you'll never know.