The pain of your death

I see your shadow
i cant hide the pain
i mistake another for you
and still i cry
wanting to find that message
that tells me your ok
i cant believe your gone
i look at your picture
and break down into tears
if someone talks about you
i get all angry and want to die
so i could be with you just one more time
you are still with me
in my mind heart and soul
it kills me when i picture your face before you died
in my head are memories
the bad and the good
is there a way where i could change all that has happened
maybe if i would not have found you
n one of this would have happened
some how i feel responsible for your death
at night i listen carefully to hear all the annoying things you used to do
that night before you died
you tried to tell me something
but i did not listen
instead i yelled at you
instead of asking what was wrong
i should have kept you in my sight that day
but i did not
you went into my room
and once again i yelled at you
you came running out
it was like your legs were left behind
i feel like it was my fault
when i see you again
when i join you up there
there is going to be a new waterfall falling
because of all the happy tears that are going to fall
a rainbow will arise
just from the glistening of your eyes
soon god will take me home
and your going to be surprised
i will see you when i get up there
wait for me ok